Bradkinn's video: BradKinn - Struggling NF drifting

I had a lot of trouble mixing this one... The original intent was to make a "NF Drifting" remix of the sorts, but I ended up going with this. Hope you enjoy! Prod. H3 Music Lyrics - Am I the only struggling Fighting my sin And my desires that draw me in I'm crumbling Underneath the weight of all my failed attempts My bandages falling off revealing who I really am It's hard to keep composed when sin is at my fingertips And lingering changing what my interest is I'm the weakest there's no doubt Giving in when there's an out Sin and Cover up my self Hiding all my cracks and doubts It's a cycle of hurting and hating Then loving and caring myself Breaking and fixing Building and destroying It's all pointless I'm broke till I die Till that day I fly Struggling fighting myself and everything I hold dear Suffocating under the pressure of my self imposed fear Am I the only here? Struggling My gut hurts my head spins I'm back again I thought I killed this sin It's insane I can't tame My tongue or my body This is No game my soul at stake Looking for that well done I forsake my sin alone Struggle to even put the down the phone When I can look so easy So easy on my eyes Believe me Window is fogged up with lies I can't breathe right I'm filling my lungs with toxins No options I'm done with everything I'm giving up to surrender to God And now I can fight with a rod Smash these serpent skulls in on God And cast every wrong thought And every bad thing that got Will fade away like how I wanted Desires fading like a fire Now I'm fire Burning with a passion for something higher Something meaningful and heavenly That's on God not a bit of me Could of done what he did instantly And that's why I serve him till the end of me Am I the only here? Struggling... Even in my darkest moments you love me addicted to self I don't deserve it There isn't anything in worth of value yet you show me your grace and mercy forever the worthy loving the worldly I am unworthy forever thirsty Give me the strength to kill my flesh crucify it like my savior bring me closer to my creator forever unworthy forever loved forever unworthy of your love forever unworthy forever loved FOREVER LOVED