ElleMar's video: YOU RE THE REAL MONSTER aidan waite bhus

Hello there. It's been awhile. But you're used to my sporadic uploads by now. If there is anyone out there who still cares about me and my videos, HI. Yes, I do still vid, but I've been so neglectful of it. But lately I've been feeling strangely inspired. I have a lot of of old videos that I would like to upload as well. But I still enjoy it and am currently working on some new stuff. I hope to reconnect with that part of myself and get back into editing. And upload some of my old videos that I think are actually worth sharing with the world. That being said, this is one of them. This one might be my favorite. Or the one I'm most proud of. I'm absolutely telling the truth when I say I spent over 2 years working on this video. Not consistently, but I would piece at it. I started it at the end of 2017. But I actually finished editing it at the beginning of last year (2019). I think that is the longest I've ever worked on a single video. It was such a tedious project, but I'm so incredibly proud of it and I think it's my best work in a long time. I've wanted to make a video with this song for years. And I changed my idea around a lot. But when I landed on what I knew it had to be, everything just fell into place. But my own laziness got the best of me. I think I'm finally satisfied with the end result. Aidan Waite is my absolute favorite fictional character of anything ever. I have such love and attachment to him that I will never let go of. He means so much to me. Because he is so imperfect and he struggles immensely with his inner demons and goes through life with an intense amount of anxiety on his shoulders (which is something I feel and relate to him on a personal level). Mine is no where near as heavy or intense as having murderous impulses and a life crippling addiction, but I feel like I connect to Aidan on a more personal level now than I have. And I feel like that's due to growing older and living life. Sorry to get so personal here. But it became personal to me the more I worked on it. Anyways, this is just another angsty, sad, depressing Aidan video. the way; zack hemsey aidan waite; being human (us)