Gabriela Atanasov's video: My wild flower Iris celebrating her first birthday

When i was 8 months pregnant we shoot a very emotional video with Iuliana Cristina Popescu from @Inthedimlight On 23rd of February Iris is celebrating her first Birthday. For this occasion i decided to recreate that mood, using the same colours but in a different place. Now i felt like sharing with you some things i've never said before. When i was 2 months pregnant with her, i dreamed of holding in my hands a babygirl and bathing her in the sea. At that time it is almost impossible to be sure of the gender tests, but from that moment on, i knew we will have a girl. Something similar happened during my first pregnancy, i dreamed a little boy and than Erik was born. Technically i saw in dreams my kids before holding them in my arms. During the entire pregnancy i was obsessed with my husband's green eyes, i really wanted her to have green eyes. Until she was 3 months old she actually had them...but than they turned dark brown. Still she is a copy of my husband, she looks just like him. If i sing to my Iris so she can fall asleep, she will be singing along with me, therefore it is very hard for me to put her to sleep. We couldn't decide for a name...for a long time. For a few months we wanted her to be Leyla - which translates from arabic - dark beauty. But then, when i was almost 9 months, one night i remembered that i loved the name of the Greek Goddess of the Rainbow - Iris and i started to read about the significance of the name and her story on the internet and i fell in love with the name even more. My husband really wanted her to be Leyla. We even had a stupid childish deal. If she was green eyed and born during the daytime she will be Iris. If she will be born during the night and have dark eyes she will be Leyla as it meant dark beauty, or the beauty of the night. She was born at 23:55, in the room 5 on the 23rd of february. It was a dark night, eventually after 3 months her eyes turned brown and her name... is Iris. So i didn't respect the deal. In the first year of having a babygirl, i felt like i've given birth to my peace. I have never been so chill. She is sleeping from 9 to 8 in the morning. She didn't give me sleepless nights, i stopped breatsfeeding at 6 months because she just didnt want it anymore. One night, the day after she turned 6 months she just stopped eating, rejected the breast, said her first Ma-MA and turned around. The decision was hers. She made me take my time, care for myself, sleep next to her during the day. I did this for at least half of this year. It seamed like she came into my life to teach me the lesson of having my beauty sleep. All the people whom she has met, said that she has a contagious calm that usually comes with a smile. I trully hope she wont lose her superpower, ever. Despite her calm, you must know that the pregnancy time was difficult for me. And even if i didn't show it in online, the first months i suffered from a slight despression, i had the constant need to vomit, yet i couldn't do it, so it was a dizzy part of my life. I had allergies activated and couldn't breath normally and then in the 7th month i started to bleed and had contractions, i was very afraid i will lose her, or i will have a premature baby. Had to give up on driving and working for a while. And here we are after a year, living with a rainbow in our house, that fills our heart with light and joy on a daily basis. That puts a smile on our faces even when we are completely empty inside. Her life outside is in a total contrast from her 9 months inside the uterus. Now that she is here for a year i just don't know what to wish her more. I wish her a lot of music. Because this is what i think she was born to have and give. I wish her joy and dances and a lot of colours to paint her path with. I wish her a healthy soul. I wish her to keep away from bad energy, and keep her calm forever. I wish that nobody and nothing will stay in front of her dreams. No matter how hard will everything be against her, i hope she will never stop. I wish she will never abandon her love and her smile. I wish she knows she will always have time to stay in my arms and recharge her batteries. I wish she knows we will always be there to applaud her, just like she likes to applaud everything on a daily basis. I am grateful...beyond anything and everything i have experienced. I feel complete and i cherish the souls i have been given to love and raise on this planet. She is Iris - my wild flower, my rainbow goddess and my light. She is 1 year old. Happy birthday!