eMCeeHead's video: Stillwell - Killing Myself To Live

[VERSE 1] So now I'm faced with a decision to make I'm living in a race swimming with sinning and hate Grinning with fakes in the middle of a prison escape Incarcerated by my own thoughts Haunted with the feeling that my lifetime has grown short It's the beginning of the end for me until they empty me I fear the destiny of God and the Devil himself that have sent for me Cut to the chase at my birth Cut from the face of the Earth Cut from the grace of the church Cut through the waiste 'till it hurts No one around wants to help restore me Let's face it, a man's downfall makes for a better story The media will make a mockery out of the pain in my life And you can tune into the amusement on Entertainment Tonight {} bad chemicals Became a grand spectacle, a punchline for the whole crowd to laugh hysterical Money, trash, and women with substance addictions Trapped in a chase trying to run from afflictions [CHORUS] Drug dependencies, suicidal tendencies {} how could it ever be? Pretend celebrities with their lives in jepordy Sucess was the end of me Killing myself to live Alone in a crowded room Killing myself to live All the voices in my head say Killing myself to live I'm going through a {} Killing myself to live I swear I'll change tomorrow Killing myself to live [VERSE 2] I look for silence in some organized religion The more my eye twitches seem the more I despise the living My blasphemous past made blasphemous cash Now it's all stacked in the trash, my actions are trashed I'm running with the sheep Blessed all the meat Tongue's possessing my speech Part of an extraterrestral freak Got my sins deleted from God's computer Same God that bombs intruders of other God disputers My rock 'n' roll money was given to the law And seeing the police driving an automobile he shouldn't afford They stood and applaud the words I couldn't absorb 'Cause the hood here in the broad is all good {} I'm in a haze again Return to my wicked ways again Stricken from his praise again Ripping the page condemned Standing in darkness doing {} cuts my frown Hands of darkness crucifiction upside down [CHORUS] [VERSE 3] Rebound of obsession sleeping deep down in regression Found perfection in a {} If you can't beat it, join it Smoke it, drink it, fly off the injection {} depression Man, what a rush life's {} in a flush The grandness of the rush, stranded I'm standing {} It's so easy to do wrong, so easy to spew hate I can't leave it and move on, believe me it's too late That's when I'm approached by the man from the network Said if I could maintain the madness, man I could get work They're gonna cut me a big cheque to invade my privacy Put me on the TV and claim demons inside of me Being myself is a surreal life Feels like my shield's died {} Empty's how I feel inside All of the players crying I needed this end to reality TV celebrity died meaningless [CHORUS]