fallens memes dump's video: Brite Boy Alex G Cover

"hello, everyone. I hope you've all been starting the month as strong as you can in this strange reality many of us have adopted lately. I myself am currently feeling nervous about the uncertainty of my housing in the coming months, but I do have a place to sleep for the foreseeable future and am surrounded by a small handful of kind and loving humans so I'm doing my best to stay positive. I can't say I'm much of a buff on Alex G's other work, but this song holds quite a good deal of sentimental catharsis for me. I have distinct memories of my first psyche ward stay in the wake of the fall 2016 fallout, playing this song on the keyboard in the ward's activity room and singing it with someone who was the most important person in my life at the time. This person chose to put so much of themselves into supporting me during this time, even though they had no idea the actual toll it would take on them. This person made this decision solely because of their dedication to me and their desire to see me okay and safe, and me being in the severely traumatized and unstable state I was, latched onto that compassion out of an irrational fear of abandonment and forced them to sever ties with me in a decision that I can only describe as paramount for us to develop into the people we are today. I have not had contact with this person for close to 3 years now, but I still miss them every day and continue to learn how cope with such a complex variety of grief that's felt like no other since we parted ways. I have been thinking about them far more often lately as, if they're still working the job they were when we last spoke, then they are someone working on the front lines of the Coronavirus pandemic as we speak. My anxiety for their wellbeing in these times has sparked urges to reach out to them to say all of the things I should have so many years ago, but I have reached the conviction that I would rather lose them for good without achieving my desires for closure than barge my way into their life again. I know that they are surrounded by loving people, and I feel certain that I am no longer in love with this person the way I had projected onto them for so many years. I mourn the friendship that I could have fostered with them, but I am in love with their existence. I am in love with the undeniable fact that so many people will have the privilege of being touched by the kind and compassionate light that radiates from them. The love and potential to teach others that this person has is boundless, and I believe that one day I can live my life fully content with nothing more. I apologize for the long rambling. I had planned to record a another cover to put out before this one, but the move has me in not very ideal conditions for playing guitar and singing so this will be the last one for a while. I hope everyone at least enjoys the performance and that you have a safe rest of your week."