skribblez9's video: Cwalk - Runnin

hi ^.^ i am back again finally...with a crappy snippet :( this is just to say that i'm still here, still... alive. although it's been a while, i am happy to be back. i recorded this video back in february. i haven't really cwalked since then, but i tried cwalking a few days ago hehe. i got tired so fast lol and i'm really heavy on my feet now! but yep, i just wanted to put it out there that i will be recording and uploading some new videos soon. hoping it will somehow make up for my absence. :( i am thankful and appreciative that there are still some people who are supportive even though i've been gone for quite some time. my next few videos will be dedicated to those of you who helped encourage me through my previous cwalk video. i would never expect to see a comment on any of my videos with that many thumbs up. thank you for helping encourage me. i am very rusty right now, but i will try my best. just wait for the next few videos. hopefully you'll see something better from me soon~ ^^ where have i been? i've been staying here in the philippines for the past 11 months just hiding under my bed trying to accept the harsh realities of life. well mostly on the laptop making websites. i came here back in january with my mum, who helped me adjust to life here in manila and taught me how to cook rice, household chores, etc. my dad also came after my mum left. he helped me learn how to get around, taught me how to cook some food, how to seek/get medical attention, etc. and then my sister and mum came back to manila from australia, and we were able to spend quality time together as a family. i really owe a lot to them because i'm not sure if i would have lasted this long in the philippines without their support along the way because i actually spent most of the past 11 months here on my own, so their support really helped. hehe i still clearly remember my first day here on my own, just taking the taxi back home to my apartment after dropping my dad off at the airport. it was one of those times when i was just like "oh shit son, what did you get yourself into?" o_o the fact that i was basically on my own and an 8 hour flight away from family took a while to sink in. it was really scary at first, but that was to be expected and it was something i had to learn to deal with. i only really started to come to terms with how hard it can be on your own away from family two months into my stay here when there was a flood here in manila and no electricity for days. that was probably one of the worst experiences i've had here, but it helped condition me for similar unfortunate occurrences in future. overall, i feel the time i've spent here has helped me grow and mature, not only as a person, but also as an individual. through all the hard times i faced in my time here, i learned to be strong not only for my family back at home in sydney, but also for myself. i would have to say it's something i have always thought of myself as being the opposite. :( everyday life here somehow helped encouraged a more positive stance towards life and a lot of things. i guess you just realize how much harder you make it for yourself, and how much time and energy you waste if you are negative, so it's better to just try and stay positive and accept what you can not change. c'est la vie. in addition, you pay more attention to what goes on around you and learn to just appreciate everything around you, even the negative, because there is always something positive, or at least useful, to take from and learn from what you see and what goes on around you. i guess it's just a matter of opening yourself up to it. i still feel like i have a long way to go, and there is still much more for me to learn, but so far i am happy being here. just really sucks to be away from family at times. :( now that i have become more adjusted to life here in manila, living on my own and supporting myself by making websites, i am hoping to go to university here in the year to come since i have been saving up the whole year and i think it should be enough to get me through a whole year or two of university incl. living expenses. that is one of the reasons i came here - education. other reason i came here i guess was to be away from sydney and life back there. it was one of those times in my life when i was like "lol f*ck this shit, i'm out." because of some things that happened. some things i couldn't accept.. or didn't want to accept.. for whatever reason. i dono if i can say i've moved on yet because these things still bother me from time to time, but it doesn't bother me as much as it used to and i guess i will leave it at that. there were other reasons, but i'm not sure if i'm bothered to go on. the main thing on my mind was to take the cowards way out and fly all the way to manila away from it all. looking back, i don't regret the decision i made to come here. i still think it was for the best.. well, take care^.^