xTwilight95x's video: Lackluster Lullaby Original Song

Music and lyrics: xtwilight95x Illust.: dream by wombo --- Something ends and something starts But I'm trying to be like a necromancer Staring at a wall and expecting it to answer I'm a fool, I know, and what's worse, nobody's laughing with me I take it easy and I take it seriously simultaneously I find comfort in imagining my skin cracking It's got nothing to do with self-loathing I just want to challenge time and make it out alive As the night gets deeper and more silent I whisper: "I believe, I believe" When the feeling comes, I don't fight it My slight frown then turns into a grin I gave a new name to a star, made up a legend about it And I wished upon it. Isn't it crystal-clear That I'm trying my very best? How could anyone say I am weak When I didn't even show them my tears? It's true, I do want to go back to when Despair had a hold on me I find comfort in listening to my own whining It reminds me that I still care about something I wish I could erase the proud look on my face when I say "Now nobody can hurt me in the least" Now I'm just babbling. This song was about grieving And about how I can't seem to accept the obvious Everything I said is true, but only in theory Because in practice I have perfect routine